Lately;

i don't know if i've been acting really strange lately, or if everyone around me has been acting really strange lately. i don't know why i'm never hungry anymore. i could go 3 days without eating, i actually have to remind myself to eat or i wont. i guess i'm having an off week this week. hopefully it'll turn on for the weekend. i really want to see emily, so we can sit in her bed and do our eyebrows, ill bring my r&b CD, she always brings out the black in me, and i miss her. if we hang out, i promised i'd make her mashed potatoes, since i've been told thats the only thing i'm good at cooking. i even mess up on that sometimes though. i have been talking to lemus, my best friend, a lot lately, and were going through the same thing, even though hes a boy, and i'm girl, we still relate when it comes to relationships, i don't know why people would think otherwise. we are all humans, we all love in the same way. anyway, i'm done with trying to figure guys out. its stupid. and annoying, and even if i'm in high-school, i don't want to feel like i'm part of all that loveydovey bullshit. i have never crushed on a guy unless i knew for sure he liked me too. so it was kinda a bigdeal, but its okay. ill deal with it later, im just going to be nice to everyone, i'm going to drink some soda, make myself a sandwich and i'm going to try to be happy.